Mean girl

It's so f*cking hot outside. Seriously, where are we? Is this Texas? No? It's not...then why am I sweating like it is?
Alisa and I were talking about the Olympics over lunch. I told her how this weekend when I was babysitting was my first time watching any of this year's events. If I'd had my say, I would have put it on something/anything else, but these two kids who's ages combined don't add up to mine somehow took control of the remote. I just wanted them to like me, so I didn't fight it. Anyway, that's not the point. I'm not sure I have a point. Oh yeah...gymnastics. I remember as a child thinking that the gymnasts were so pretty. But after watching an E! special "Big Dreams, Little Girls" I've come to the realization that either I was blinded by their celebrity or actually had no concept of the word "pretty". Shannon Miller...(warning: extremely rude comment ahead) she was not attractive by any definition of the word. In fact, she was almost hard to look at ugly. And what was with the haircuts? Amanda Borden, Kerri Strug...were they trying to look ugly or were they just channeling Mary Lou, thinking "if I have her haircut, maybe I too can be on a Wheaties box." Celebrities are held up to a different standards of beauty, and as Olympic gymnasts, they constitute as people we celebrate. I tend to only think of celebrities in the sense of J. Lo and Gwyneth Paltrow and others like them. Regardless, I find myself saying the most awful statements about these people that I would never say about a regular person. Regular? That sounds so depressing. So it's either "I'm famous" or "I'm regular"? I should have chosen my words more carefully. Where was I? I guess I feel a little guilty that not only do I think these things, but I have the audacity to write them down for others to read. Why would I want people to know how truly "ugly" I can be? And so I'm back w/ the rambling. I'm switching topics.
How about this: People I hate. I use this word too much, when in reality I've never truly hated anyone. No one has ever done anything bad enough to me to warrant the feeling of pure hatred. But yet I toss the word around in various conversations or as stand alone statements:
"I hate Hillary Duff"
"I hate Paris Hilton"
"I hate Tara Reid"
I don't really "hate" these girls...I think I just despise them. But they've never done anything to me personally (except for my run in w/ the Duff, or the money I'll never get back for "Mean Girls"...wait, I didn't list Lindsay Lohan). Maybe I just enjoy trash talking these slut-ebrities. I have to admit, it's a fun topic of conversation. Just bashing their existence. Or maybe I just need more going on in my own life.
Reagan